The Concert

This is the second part to my Friday post. The concert went different than I had originally planed.At first it was going fine Bree was rocking it on stage and I was having a good time. Than I saw Olivia across the hall and I could tell she was looking for me. I decided now was a better time than any. When I got up to Olivia she gave me a dirtier look than the look Carolyn gave me when I first met her. I knew Bree had told her about are little fling at the mall. When we started to talk it became apparent Olivia did not trust me. It was not just because I was fooling around with her girl but because I was strongly connected to Carolyn.  I told her I was not here to cause problems but Olivia would not back off me. All of a sudden I see these two big goons coming towards us. This is when I came to a revelation. Although they would never admit it Carolyn and Olivia shared a lot in common. Both of these woman were rich and powerful. They had their resources to get what they wanted. In Carolyn case it was whoever was this person who supplied her with the information on people she was interested in. For Olivia it was these two big goons who were probably going to beat whatever information they wanted out of me. I wanted to be able to stand my ground but the stress and pain I had been feeling lately has caused damage to my system. I than had a panic attack and passed out. I can't imagine what was going through Bree mind watching this unfold on stage. The next thing I know is one of Olivia men are pouring water on me to wake me up and then took me to a room backstage where they set me on a couch. Olivia sat next to me and I could tell she was actually concerned about my health. I told her I would be fine. She than started to text on her phone. I know she was probably texting Bree telling her something and I think it was more than I was OK. Once Olivia bodyguards were out of the room she started to ask me about Carolyn and about a secret society. I told her that the only thing I knew about anything like that was that Carolyn wanted to find others like us and help them out. I'm starting to have trouble figuring out who to trust. Carolyn has been so nice to me by letting someone who she had only know for a few hours stay in a five star hotel, rented me an amazing car, and gave me access to her money all the while she was in New York. The other side of the coin is that both Bree and Olivia are worried that my judgment is being blocked by the offer of wealth that Carolyn was offering. I don't want to bit the hand that feeds me. I know that Carolyn has a good heart under that tough exterior and that I can help her. The wealth was nice but it was not why I was with Carolyn. As I was leaving Bree came up to me and accepted an offer I made a few days ago asking her if she wanted to go to the beach on Sunday. This did make me feel better. When I got out front Dani was waiting for me. I admit I snapped at her a little asking were she was when I was having a panic attack. When Dani and I got back to the hotel I apologized for yelling, I than told her about the confrontation and what had been said. Time for me to go to bed. Hopefully it will be a peaceful day. I hope I will be able to relax, spend more time with Dani, and get my mind off everything. Talk to all of you who are reading this later.

Here is  picture I took while I at Dani apartment
 before the concert.  I felt I owed you guys 
something for such a wordy post today.

Geting Ready for the Concert and Meeting a New Friend.

This is going to be the first part of my post for today . Hey everybody today I am feeling better. I am typing this message on my phone while at Stokies waiting for Bree to start performing. When I woke up this morning I decided even with the chance at running into a potentially angry Olivia I was going to go to Bree concert. I also got a call from Carolyn. She had seen last night post and she wanted to make sure I was OK. I told her I was fine now and it was nice to here from her. She than told me she would be back in Florida soon. She also said she arranged a special surprise for me. I was a little nervous about what that could be. All of a sudden the door bell rang. I did not remember calling the front desk . When I looked through the peep hole their was this beautiful Asian woman. I opened the door with the latch still on and asked who she was. She said that she her name was Dani and she was an escort hired by Carolyn to be a companion to talk to while she is out of town. I invited her inside and we started to talk. She told me that she 23, was from England, and had recently move to Miami as an employee of Skyline Frames Production. I will admit their something extremely hot about a Japanese girl with a British accent. I asked her "where her bags were" and she said "that they were at her apartment across town because she thought it would be rude to show up with her bags". I then said "We should go get them" and than we left to go get her bags.

I took this picture of Dani with my phone before we left for her apartment

While driving to her apartment Dani asked me since she was new to town if their was any fun places to visit. I said the usual for Miami: the beach, shopping, clubs nothing too special. I also said I was going to see my friend Bree perform tonight and she should come along. Dani gave me a funny look and said she had met someone online named Bree who lived in the area and when she described her I knew it was the same Bree. This caused something in my mind to start to turn. It seemed strangely familiar that she would meet Bree online like I did. For the next hour while we got are stuff together I started to grill Dani trying to see if she what I could get. Eventually she told me what I expected to her. She was one of us. She like Bree had been born a man and had made a wished to be a woman. She told me "she had only had been a woman for about a week." We talked for another 30 minutes or so before I noticed the time. I than told her we had to go or we would be late for the concert. We than hoped into the Z4 and off we went. I knew their is a chance that Olivia might make trouble while I was at the show but at this point I just want to go watch Bree and have a good time. I will finish this day after the concert so talk to you guys later.

Dani took this picture and boy do I look hot.

My Day Was a Living HELL

A warning for people before reading this I have made it a goal to post everyday no matter what to best help myself and if their others like us. Today was by far the worse day I have had since I moved to Florida.

 I woke up at 4:30 in the morning because I could not sleep. Every time I closed my eyes all I saw was a naked Bree. I turned on the tv to try and clear my mind but it did not work. It was not helping I was in this fancy hotel room all by myself. I need someone right now more than ever. I decided I would go visit my parents but when I got to their home no one was around. I used my spare key to get inside and made myself at home while I waited for them to return. I waited time seeming to move in slow motion. All I could think of was Bree. Why was my mind doing this to me. These urges were getting harder and harder to control. After about two hours I called my mom to see when they were returning and found out that they went out of town and would not be back Monday. I left the house and began to just walk hoping that the fresh air would help. I was not paying attention to were I was going and all of sudden I was at Bree house. Damn I wished I remembered she only lived a couple of miles from my parents place. I was about to see if she was home when Olivia pulled up to the house and went inside. As much as I needed someone I did not want to risk making things worse. When I got back to my parents house I got in the Z4 and went to a liquor store before returning to my hotel room. I was not going to fall back into my old cocaine habits but that did not mean I would not drink my sorrows away.

I must have taken this picture before I blacked out

I woke up a couple hours after blacking out still feeling cold and empty. I pray that I feel better tomorrow. I want to go to Bree concert but I don't want to show up like this. If I don't recover from this soon I might fall back into my old habits. Sorry to leave on such a depressing note but I hope those who are reading had a better day than I did.

My Day With Bree

Today was one wild day. I got up at 6:00 am to get ready to drop Carolyn at the airport and than go meet Bree. Carolyn said I could use her rental car while she was in New York. You know Carolyn has way too much money if she is renting a 2012 BMW Z4 for long periods of time.

My car is a piece of shit compared to this thing.

Carolyn also gave me one of her credit cards to use to buy whatever I wanted. After dropping her off at the airport I drove to Cafe Bastillie to meet with up with Bree. When I entered the cafe Bree was already their sipping some coffee. I sat down and asked how her morning was. She told me "It was good for the most part but on the other hand I had three people use my blog to stalk me. I apologized for spying on her and we started to talk about our experiences. After about ten minutes of talking something in my mind changed. I could not think stop thinking about how hot Bree looked and I just wanted to hang out with her all day. I than decided to ask Bree to skip work and come hang out with me at the mall. She was a little hesitant at first but she eventually agreed. Bree suggested we go to the dolphin mall because it was her favorite mall. So we got into the Z4 and drove over to the dolphin mall to do some shopping. I had never seen a mall that big and after a few hours we got to Bree favorite store Garage.

 

Bree wanted to find a swimsuit for her next trip to the beach. This sadly is were things turned for the worst. While trying on swimsuits our sexual urges took over and we started to make out. I came to my senses and stopped us before we did anything we were going to regret. Bree was with Olivia and it would be wrong for me to damage their relationship. When Bree fully realized  the situation she had a mortified look on her face. After that we went back to her car which was back at Cafe Bastillie. Before she left Bree asked me if we could get passed this and still be friends. I told her of course we could and I would see her concert later in the week. As I watched Bree get into her car I have to admit it was going to hard for me not to follow my urges to go after Bree. I am back at Carolyn hotel room and I have decided to go to bed earlier than usual  tonight to hopefully clear my head.

Here is a little something for my fans goodnight.

 

Dinner With Carolyn

Today was a very  busy and productive day in my hunt to find Bree and the other girls. I woke up around 7:00 A.M  angry with myself for not talking to Bree about my past. So I decided  I was going to make it up to myself  by confronting possibly the most dangerous of the girls, Carolyn. Finding her was not that difficult because looking at Bree blog I saw that she was having at meeting without Carolyn. After my run in with Bree the Yesterday I went to go find the graphic design company she worked for since I knew it was by my workplace and after fifteen minutes of looking I thought I found it. When I pulled up to the design company I saw a girl who looked liked Carolyn walking inside the building. After waiting for a while Carolyn eventually came out the door and walked across the street to a Starbucks. As I watched her from a distance I came to the conclusion that I was not going to just go up to Carolyn and confront her. I don't think she would believe me and just laugh at me. I needed something a little more forward. I decided to use my phone to message Carolyn telling her that I wanted to meet her and that if she didn't I would send a copy of her blog to Skyline Frames Production. I know that this was a dick move but I knew Bree would not want her boss and fellow employees to see her online hobby. About five minuets later she emailed me to meet her at some five star restaurant at 6:00 pm. When I got to the restraint I saw Carolyn sitting at a table with legs crossed wearing this extremely sexy in this black blouse and black pencil skirt. When I sat at the table she gave me the coldest stair I have ever seen. Before I could say anything Carolyn handed me a folder filled with pictures of me from earlier today. She looked at me and said "I pulled these pictures off security cameras. After you contacted me, I looked into people that matched your description and seems my feeling that I was being watched were correct. I know everything their is to know about you."

   

I can't believe I wore that outfit, It is summer time in Miami and was extremely

humid today. I should have known   even in this ally I would not be able to cool 

    myself off a little without someone seeing me but I can't deny this picture is hot.    

I could not believe how easy it was for her to get photos of me. Whatever connections she has are absolutely amazing connections. For the next hour we talked about our changes and how we were adjusting to our new lives as women. I could tell Carolyn might act like she was tough but deep down inside she was sad and confused. It made sense by my research she has been a woman for the shortest amount of time. I have been one for over six months now and had to adapt to survive. I wanted to help her learn to except her fate and that their was no going back to our old lives. Carolyn also wanted to help me. She knew I was dirt poor, worked at McDonald's, and lived in a shitty apartment. So she came up with a proposition. She would help me get a high paying job and help find me a nice apartment to live in. In return she said that she would let me try to help her adjust to her new life. After dinner she told me I was staying in her hotel room with her until she found we found a new apartment for myself. When we got to her hotel room she told me that she was going to New York for a while and that I will stay here while she was gone. Once she was asleep I decided to see if Bree had seen my next blog post I put on ecirava.com/. As soon as I logged in Bree I.M. tab popped up . She told me to meet her at Cafe Bastillie at 8:00 a.m right before she had to go to work. Tomorrow is going to be another interesting day hopefully Bree is not too mad at me for what happen. I have to go to bed now I have to go bed now I have to drop Carolyn at the airport at 7:30 a.m. Here is one more picture before I go to bed just for you guys. Talk to all tomorrow.

Still sexy even when it's time for bed

The Begining of My story

Hello my name is Tonya and welcome to my blog. I was born a man but got turned into a woman by a wish. I originally started my blog on the website ecirava.com in the form of captions as a way to put my past life as a man to rest but thanks to some strange circumstances I have been dragged into a world much bigger than I could have possibly imagined. Instead of rewriting stuff I already said in the captions I wrote I decied to just repost them here.

This is my story so far. My goal is to post new material daily on this blog and I plan on making new captions ecirava.com. To fully get a view of this crazy world I was dragged into check out the blogs Being Bree & Carolyn's Captiviating Chronicles which links are posted on this blog and Olivia Captions on ecirava.com by using the url:http://ecirava.com/index.php/view/asagi/olivia/. Until next time it is good bye and thank you for reading my story.