A Few Days in New York

Wow sorry I have not written in the last week but I have been busy. Bree and I went to New York since she had a modeling job. It was awesome we did a lot of shopping and went clubbing at night. Bree gets drunk so easily but she is so much fun. Her photo shoot went amazing and she is so sexy. I am lucky to have a girl like her. Although I did not like that she woke me up at 7:00 am and then took my picture. We are heading to the airport to return home so we can celebrate Bree birthday with her family this afternoon. I can't wait for her to see what I got her for her birthday. Talk to you later

Do I look like I wanted my picture taken Bree..

Movies and Rock N' Roll

Sorry it has been so long since I last posted I have been a little busy. Today was awesome but fun day. Bree and I went to Heather and Jess place since she wanted to skateboard with Heather. So Jesse and I decided to go see Captain Phillips. It was a really good drama and I will be surprised if Tom Hanks dose not get at least an Oscar nomination for the film. After that I got ready with Heather and Jess to see Bree concert. She is so amazing at the guitar and I know that with the right label she could huge. Well I just got home with Bree and to be honest it is 4:00 am. I am too tired to take a picture so I will talk to you guys later.

Problems at the beach

Today was not that great of a day I got some pictures that Carolyn found on a paparazzi website they were taken from the time we were at the beach. I looked at the site and they were calling Bree fat. This pissed me off but I had to show Bree. I met with Bree and showed her the pictures. She was not happy and is more eager to work out. She might post the pictures on her blog and it would  not be right for me to post them here. Talk to you guys later.

Clean Bill of Health

Very short post today just wanted to tell everyone that I have gotten a clean bill of health from the doctor. Bree and I are going to start working out in a few days so I can get ready to model and fight again. Well I have to go talk to you later.

Late Night Partying

Last night I went partying with Bree, Heather, and Jess. It was a great night Bree and I started out dancing for what felt like hours. Afterwards Bree and sat at the Bar. Two guys came up to us at the bar. We told them we were lesbians but they did not seem to mind. We drank a little and went out back on the dance floor and we danced together. While dancing the guy who had been hitting on Bree kissed her. We all laughed about it. After a few more hours we took a taxi home and feel asleep. I am a little hung over but some coffee will help. Talk to you guys later.

Exercise & Hamburger Casserole

Yesterday  Bree came over after a meeting with Carolyn. Bree said that I was getting too lazy and we had to work out. First she tried to get me to run around the park by my apartment. Sadly I was to sore to run so I jogged. Then she made me swim laps in the pool with her. By the time Luke her brother arrived for dinner I was so  hungry I would have ate the dish that held Bree mom homemade Hamburger Casserole. It was extreme good. Luke could not keep his eyes off me but I don't mind. I know he likes me but knows I am Bree. After he left Bree cuddled with me and we watched some TV. I love Bree and she makes me so happy I will talk to you guys later.

Poolside Problems

Sorry it has been a few days since my last post. Not much until today has been happening. Bree, Jess, and Heather have been doing an amazing job at watching over me. I asked Bree out so we are now going out and I am so happy. Today we decided to rest by the pool. Ozzy messed with Bree while we were getting dress and stole her top again. While we were relaxing some asshole decided to take pictures of us for his magazine. He said that people wanted photos of models and athletes that got beat up. I wish I could have kicked his ass but it was so sexy watching Bree kicked the crap our of him. She also took his memory card. Well it is time for dinner and I will talk to you guys later."

The Skateboard Competition

Today was the big day for Heather. She was finally going to compete in the skateboard competition. I was not sure if I would be able to make it since Bree was worried about me moving around too much but I had a wheelchair and she was fine pushing me around. Heather did amazing at the show and I think she will for sure get signed to a team and stay in Miami for awhile. When we got back we celebrated for awhile. Bree is sleeping in my bed with me while she is here. I hate that I am too sore to have sex with her but that is life. I will talk to you guys soon.

Another boxing match

Sorry it has been a while since I last posted but my computer been down but I promise to catch back up. Friday was boxing match and overall was a bad day. When  I got to the match Carolyn was waiting for me. We ended up getting into a huge fight because of the way she was treating Bree and the fact she would not let her leave. I told her I wanted her to leave and that she might not be my manager anymore. When the match started I was still mad but I thought I calmed down enough to focus. The match went bad for some reason I felt like someone was controlling my arms and I could not block. I ended  up extremely hurt with four broken ribs, three bruised ribs, a black eye, broken noise, and black eye. After a few days in the hospital Bree came to take me home and take care of me which made me happy. Got to go Bree just got done making lunch talk to you later.

Taking Care of Bree

Today I got a call from Bree. She is crying and very upset. Olivia has left and she had sex with that guy she was seeing I can't think of his name right now. I headed over to her house and when I entered it I could tell she had been upset for a couple of days. There was food everywhere rotting on the floor, broken furniture, and when I found her she looked like she had been crying nonstop for hours. I have been taking care of her today and plan to stay for a few days to help her get better. She needs me and I'm not going to leave her when she is like this. Talk to you guys later.

Picture from Photoshoot #02

Hey people not much has been happening but I got a call from Carolyn and she said she had the pictures from my latest photoshoot. She said I can use one the pictures she was not posting on the blog. So I hope you like it and I will talk to you later.

Life seems Peaceful

Hello everyone. Sorry if my post seem to be getting wider and wider spread but there has not been much to post on. I have gotten into a routine. It has been lately getting up in the mourning, going on a jog with Ozzy, making breakfast for Dani and myself, working out with a trainer for my boxing, doing chores around the house or going shopping, make dinner for Dani and myself, and spending the rest of the evening with her. I will try to post more entries especially if something big happens.

Dani took this one night and I thought you 

would guys would like it

Tanning by the Pool

Hey everyone. Not much today just relaxing by the pool in my apartment and having a few drinks.

I might be right on the beach but sometimes it is nice just sitting by the pool. I might go shopping with Dani tonight but overall today I am just going to tan. I will talk to you later and Bree your post on my blog made me smile. I will talk to you guys later.

I'm Like a Little Ninja!!!

Hey everyone! It's Bree! I saw Tauntaun's computer on and open to her blog dashboard so while she was cooking, I decided to do a little post. Should this be naughty or nice... Hmm... Let's go with... Naughty and Nice.

This girl Tonya... Damn is she hot. I have to say that I have a very hard time controlling myself around her... Like right now, well, right now is different for certain reasons, but, usually I'd be wanting to... ya know... 

She is also a great friend! Kind and caring -- one of the most thoughtful and generous people I know! I'm so gad to call her friend!

And that girl can cook!!! I'd be so freaking fat if I lived with her!!!

Anyway, I think she's almost finished up in the kitchen so I gotta go!

Here's little pic I just took with the web-cam on here... It's the naughty part!!! Kinda blurry but I was hurrying ;)

 

Bye T!!! Love ya girl!!!

Bree

Another Photoshoot

Today Carolyn has set up another photoshoot. It went well but the new camera guy gave me a kind of  creepy vibe this was suppose to be just a bikini shoot but he kept wanting to do topless photo. Don't get me wrong I am not a person who is  scared of showing there body off but this guy I am sure just wanted to see me naked. I hit him in the face after I caught him peaking at me the curtain in the make shift dressing room. will make sure I post a picture from the shoot as soon as Carolyn sends me one and this guy will never work with me again. I will talk to you all later.

The 4th of July

Hey everyone today I had decided to go to a local park that was doing a firework show. The park was really nice and the weather was not a bad day to be in the sun. There is not much to say it was your typical 4th of July drinking beer, eating burgers, and watching the fireworks when the sun went down. I will talk to you guys later.

Dani took this picture. Maybe I do drink too much

Checking out Modeling Pictures

Today was a simple but exciting day. Carolyn let me chose some of the photos that would be used in a magazine. The photos were taken while I was staying with Carolyn in New York. The pictures were amazing and she even let me take one that was not being used and put it on my blog.

Well besides this nothing was really different today so I will talk to you later.

Going to the Movies.

Today was a pretty simple day. It started by me giving Bree a call to see how she was doing. Sadly she was not feeling great. Today Dani and I went to the mall. We spent a few hours shopping Dani bought some new work clothes so she would look more professional and then decided to go to the movies. We decided to go see White House Down which was a decent action movie. We then got home had some dinner and I got a call from Carolyn saying that she wanted me to meet with her on Tuesday to chose some of the photos that would be used in a magazine. Talk to you all later.

Sunny Day on the Pier

Hey everyone today was a fun day. I decided I would go rollerblading on the boardwalk and pier. I had recently bought a pair of roller blades because I thought it would be a good way to walk Ozzy. It is nice living right on the beach and not very far from the pier. Once we got to the main sidewalk I put on the roller blades and sat Ozzy down on the ground. I let him start to pull me to my surprise he is a lot stronger then I thought and he has a lot of endurance. After about thirty minutes on jogging/running Ozzy needed a break. I pulled out a little bottle of water and poured it into a potable doggie dish. I also drink from a bottle of water I brought for myself.  Once he was ready we started to go again. After another twenty minutes we stopped again and sat under a palm tree. Ozzy got in my lap and slept for a while. I pulled out my phone and decided to check out Bree blog to see how she was doing which seemed to be good. Once Ozzy woke up we spent twenty minutes play with a frizz-bee before we went home. The rest of the evening was pretty standard. I hope you all have a good evening and I will talk to you later.

Another picture of me with Ozzie

Working out at the Gym

Hey people since life has been pretty normal lately I am going to try and make post every other day instead of every day unless something big happens. Well today Dani has started working as Carolyn office as her  assistant because in realty she was being wasted being mine right now and I can do my own errands during the day and I an make her happy when she gets home. Today I went to the gym to start working with the personal trainer. It was the hardest workout I have ever done. I am going to be very sore tomorrow. I got home and took a shower. When Dani got home we ordered a pizza and watched a movie. Well I guess I will talk to you guys later.

Dog Park

Hey everyone. Today was a nice relaxing day. Dani and I took Ozzy to the dog park. We had a lot of fun. We play catch with Ozzy and it was nice to see Ozzy interact with other dogs. After we got home I cooked some tri tip steaks and mash potatoes. Dani seemed to really like the food. Than we watch The Empire strikes back before Dani hit the sack. I just wanted to right something for you guys before I went to sleep. I will talk to you soon.

Dani took this picture of me and Ozzy

A Quick Hello

Hey everyone sorry it has been a couple days since I last made a post. I have been letting myself recover form the black eye and bruised ribs. My black eye is almost gone but I'm still a little sore in the ribs. Dani and I went shopping today because Carolyn is coming over tomorrow and I'm making he dinner. Dani has decided to go to her place to study for her classes. Since she wants to be my personal assistant she felt it might be good for her to learn business. Besides that nothing much has happened. I will talk to you guys later.

Dani loves this hoddie and wanted me to wear it. At least this picture hides what is left of my black eye.

My First Boxing Match

Hey everyone, today is my first boxing match since I became a girl. When I was a guy boxing was for me a great way to keep myself in shape and on the weekends I sometimes was apart of some amateur boxing matches. I decided to invite Carolyn to the match since it would be a good chance to show her that I was able to do something on my own and did not always need her. Also I knew she likes boxing. She was a little surprised about my hobby but came with special merchandise made by the company she works for. I did not invite the other girls because I was worried they would be scared of me fighting. Before the match she wished me good luck and hoped I did not get too hurt. One the match started I admit I saw how rusty I have become but by the third round I got the upper hand and knocked my opponent out. I finished the match with just a bruised rib and a black eye. Than Carolyn took me to a private doctor to make sure I was not seriously hurt. After I got my clean bill of health we went to a bar across the street from the hospital. We drank and talked for a while and than I kissed Carolyn. I don't know what made me think to do that but I liked it and I think she kind of did too because she did not chew me up for it. After that I got home late and wrote this up. I am now going to curl up in bed with Dani so I will talk to you guys later. Good night and I will talk to you guys later.

Carolyn took this picture saying that I should have a picture to show off my victory wounds.

A New Home

Today is just a quick post. Dani and I have moved into our new apartment. We packed everything up this morning and drove to the place. It is right on the beach. Dani really likes the place and I think Carolyn is happy she now has some alone time in the hotel room. This will be all for now I have to help Dani unpack our stuff. I will talk to you later.

Carolyn Returns

Today was an interesting day. After dropping Bree off where we left her car last night I enter the hotel room and Carolyn was sitting their on her computer. I admit it had caught me off guard. When I left New York a few days earlier I admit I was kind of mad at her but part of that was because it was my time of the month (luckily mine most of the time last only a few days.) My mood is still a little off and I kind of snapped at her and she almost left but I convinced her to stay. I than made her a hamburger for lunch and after that we went to the pier. We spent a few hours looking at stores along the beach and I found this cute little dachshund puppy that I had to have (I will see what names Dani likes). We also looked at a few apartments along the beach and we eventually found one that I really liked. We were able to come to a deal with the landlord and with Carolyn connections I am able to move into the apartment in a day or two. When we got back I made Carolyn and Dani some chicken fettuccine alfredo and afterwards Carolyn was tired and went to her room. Hopefully the next time I see you it will be from Dani and I new apartments. Talk to you guys later.

This is a picture of my new puppy

A Night With Bree

      Today was an interesting evening and mourning. I spent the mourning with Dani, than about 3:00 pm she had to leave to due some errands for Carolyn and would be gone till tomorrow. This did not phase me because I was meeting with Bree at a local night club. When Bree got their we talked for a while about everything that had happened while I was gone. I could tell I hurt her but Bree is too nice to stay mad at people for long. I noticed this guy came up to our table. He said he was a huge fan of Bree and offered to buy her a drink. After she agreed one of friends came over and they seemed nice. After they talked for about thirty minuets the guy who was talking to Bree decided to get a little frisky and I could tell Bree did not like it. We decided to leave but I felt like giving this asshole a piece of my mind. I threw my drink in his face and kicked him as hard as I could because no one messes with my friends like that. He is lucky I did not decide to break his arm.
      We decided to go to my place to have some more drinks. We sat out on the deck and watch the sunset. Bree played with my hair and we just cuddled it was relaxing. Bree was not feeling great and she wanted us to have a relationship that was not just sex every time we are around each other. I understand and agree with her but their is something that she brings out in me that is so hard to control. It was nice to just hang out. Bree got hungry so I went inside and made her a hamburger which she seemed to really enjoy. We than put on Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of the Crystal Stone and Bree feel asleep while I was playing with her hair. I got up around 6:00 am and decided to make Bree some cinnamon french toast and bacon. I woke Bree up by surprising her with the necklace I bought her as an apologize gift for leaving the way I did. After breakfast Bree was nice enough to reward me with some shower activities and boy they were fun. Before Bree left for work she slipped that she had a little secret. I'm not going to say what it is but next time we have some alone time it is going to be wild. Well I'm going to go I'm heading out as soon as Dani gets here we are going to run some errands and I need to talk work with Carolyn this afternoon. Here is a quick picture I took before I leave.

I look Sexy. I took the picture in black and white like the one I took of Bree earlier

Talk to you guys later.

My Meeting With Olivia

Today is going to be a short entry but to the point. I met up for lunch today with Olivia.This is the first time we have talked. I don't want to go into too much on what we talked about since Olivia wrote her story on Bree blog and it is her story to tell. The one thing that was important that was important to talk about was about Bree. She once again forgave me sleeping with Bree and told me that she did not mind if I had sex with Bree occasionally. This made me happy that Olivia was not holding a grudge against me. After I had lunch with Olivia I had to head back to the hotel to skype Carolyn about any modeling jobs she might need me to do later. Talk to you later.

A Warm Welcome and a Fresh Start

Good evening guys, I have only been home for a few hours but it has already been amazing. When I got back to the hotel room and when I opened the door, Dani came running around the corner and gave me a hug and asked me "Where have I been." I told about everything that had happened the last few days. I could tell she was not happy that I left her like I did but was happy I was home safely. I missed having Dani around and I did not want to let her go. I told her that I would not leave her again like this ever again. I told Dani if she would give me a chance I would like to give a real relationship with each other. I than kissed her and than spent the next few hours cuddling in bed talking about how our relationship would work. We came to the conclusion that we would be loyal to each other and the only exception would be if it was another girl who was changed like we did. Dani is a sleep right now and I am heading to bed so goodnight and I will talk to you later.

The Photo Shoot and Why I Have Not Posted in a While

Sorry it has been a while since my last post. A lot has happened and this will be a long post. Last Sunday was my photo shoot with Bree at the beach. We spent a good couple of hours wearing different bikinis and looking sexy for the camera. Overall I think it went really well and we had a good time.

Here is a sneak preview that Carolyn sent me. I hope you guys think I look sexy in this bikini

I admit during the shoot it took a lot of work to keep my sexual urges under control while see Bree in a bikini. After the photo shoot was done Bree and I went to the hotel room and had a couple of drinks. Those drinks must have clouded our judgement and we let our sexual urges go wild. After about an hour of the most amazing sex I have ever had we just laid their a cuddled. As Bree eventually fell asleep I start to come to the realization that once again I let my urges get the better of me. I still do not know Olivia very well and I don't know what her stance is on Bree having any kind of sexual relationship with me. I decided it was best if I left for a while and think about everything that has happened lately. I found out a couple days ago while I was at my parents house I have a grandmother in Arizona that I had not properly met since I have became a woman. I left Bree a note explaining the situation and I hoped she would forgive me when I got back to Miami.
That was about a week ago during the time I have had time to go over the whirlwind of events I have been apart of. For the first few days I thought about Bree said after we had sex,"Oh Tonya! you are an amazing girl! I wish it could be like this all the time but, you know I really love Olivia, and she loves me. I hate to even bring her up after what we just did and maybe we can get together like this from time to time. I don't know. I really wanted to do this, with you  but I knew that it would end up like this. Can't we just go back, and start it all over again. Just go back in time a few hours and make love again all over again!" Originally I took this as if I was some kind of parasite on Bree life. I was just causing problem and confusing her about her relationship with Olivia. Now I have come to a realization. Bree has a huge heart. She loves Olivia but she doses deeply care about me. It might sound odd but I am fine with this. I want Bree to be happy because she wants the same for me. We will be best friends and hang out all the time. I if we occasionally have sex it will be fun but I will not be sad when she goes back to Olivia. I also have missed something right in front of me. I have been so content at my pursuit for Bree I have missed that their is someone who has feelings for me that I have pushed aside. Dani has been their for me in the few days we have know each other and I had not realized she has been sending me messages that I just kept shooting down. I hope Dani is not to upset I left without telling her. Hopefully when I get home I can give her the attention she deserves and see if anything comes out of it.In a way I finally feel like I am truly at peace with my situation. I know the road won't be easy but I hope with my new friends by my side it will be easier. I decided to visit Carolyn before I went back to Miami and have been in New York since Thursday afternoon. I promise I will get into the details of my time in New York at a later time but right now I am hoping on a plane to Miami and should be home in a few hours. I hope that my friends forgive me for what has happened and that we can just go from here. I will talk to you guys later and wish me luck.

A Peaceful Day

Today was first very relaxing day i quite a long time. At around 8:00 a.m., I was on my computer when I got a skype call from Carolyn. I admit I was not expecting this but it was a nice surprise.

I just wish she would have skyped me 20 minuets later

 because I would have at least have been completely made up.

Carolyn was still concerned about me and was checking in on me and making sure I was feeling better. She also said that she was sending a photographer to Miami and was wondering if I wanted to do some paid modeling on the beach tomorrow. I told her only if Bree could come along and model also which she agreed to. We talked for around thirty minuets before Carolyn had to get ready for a meeting. After that I finished getting ready, called Bree to tell her about the modeling job which she sounded pretty excited for, and then I went shopping with Dani. I know I have only known Dani for one day but I think we are becoming good friends. I can tell her whats on my mind and she listens. I hope that she is not only being so nice to me because she is getting paid to be my friend and that she can trust me also. Well today was a short post but tomorrow Bree and I do our first modeling job so that should be longer. I hope that it ends up being a fun day.

The Concert

This is the second part to my Friday post. The concert went different than I had originally planed.At first it was going fine Bree was rocking it on stage and I was having a good time. Than I saw Olivia across the hall and I could tell she was looking for me. I decided now was a better time than any. When I got up to Olivia she gave me a dirtier look than the look Carolyn gave me when I first met her. I knew Bree had told her about are little fling at the mall. When we started to talk it became apparent Olivia did not trust me. It was not just because I was fooling around with her girl but because I was strongly connected to Carolyn.  I told her I was not here to cause problems but Olivia would not back off me. All of a sudden I see these two big goons coming towards us. This is when I came to a revelation. Although they would never admit it Carolyn and Olivia shared a lot in common. Both of these woman were rich and powerful. They had their resources to get what they wanted. In Carolyn case it was whoever was this person who supplied her with the information on people she was interested in. For Olivia it was these two big goons who were probably going to beat whatever information they wanted out of me. I wanted to be able to stand my ground but the stress and pain I had been feeling lately has caused damage to my system. I than had a panic attack and passed out. I can't imagine what was going through Bree mind watching this unfold on stage. The next thing I know is one of Olivia men are pouring water on me to wake me up and then took me to a room backstage where they set me on a couch. Olivia sat next to me and I could tell she was actually concerned about my health. I told her I would be fine. She than started to text on her phone. I know she was probably texting Bree telling her something and I think it was more than I was OK. Once Olivia bodyguards were out of the room she started to ask me about Carolyn and about a secret society. I told her that the only thing I knew about anything like that was that Carolyn wanted to find others like us and help them out. I'm starting to have trouble figuring out who to trust. Carolyn has been so nice to me by letting someone who she had only know for a few hours stay in a five star hotel, rented me an amazing car, and gave me access to her money all the while she was in New York. The other side of the coin is that both Bree and Olivia are worried that my judgment is being blocked by the offer of wealth that Carolyn was offering. I don't want to bit the hand that feeds me. I know that Carolyn has a good heart under that tough exterior and that I can help her. The wealth was nice but it was not why I was with Carolyn. As I was leaving Bree came up to me and accepted an offer I made a few days ago asking her if she wanted to go to the beach on Sunday. This did make me feel better. When I got out front Dani was waiting for me. I admit I snapped at her a little asking were she was when I was having a panic attack. When Dani and I got back to the hotel I apologized for yelling, I than told her about the confrontation and what had been said. Time for me to go to bed. Hopefully it will be a peaceful day. I hope I will be able to relax, spend more time with Dani, and get my mind off everything. Talk to all of you who are reading this later.

Here is  picture I took while I at Dani apartment
 before the concert.  I felt I owed you guys 
something for such a wordy post today.

Geting Ready for the Concert and Meeting a New Friend.

This is going to be the first part of my post for today . Hey everybody today I am feeling better. I am typing this message on my phone while at Stokies waiting for Bree to start performing. When I woke up this morning I decided even with the chance at running into a potentially angry Olivia I was going to go to Bree concert. I also got a call from Carolyn. She had seen last night post and she wanted to make sure I was OK. I told her I was fine now and it was nice to here from her. She than told me she would be back in Florida soon. She also said she arranged a special surprise for me. I was a little nervous about what that could be. All of a sudden the door bell rang. I did not remember calling the front desk . When I looked through the peep hole their was this beautiful Asian woman. I opened the door with the latch still on and asked who she was. She said that she her name was Dani and she was an escort hired by Carolyn to be a companion to talk to while she is out of town. I invited her inside and we started to talk. She told me that she 23, was from England, and had recently move to Miami as an employee of Skyline Frames Production. I will admit their something extremely hot about a Japanese girl with a British accent. I asked her "where her bags were" and she said "that they were at her apartment across town because she thought it would be rude to show up with her bags". I then said "We should go get them" and than we left to go get her bags.

I took this picture of Dani with my phone before we left for her apartment

While driving to her apartment Dani asked me since she was new to town if their was any fun places to visit. I said the usual for Miami: the beach, shopping, clubs nothing too special. I also said I was going to see my friend Bree perform tonight and she should come along. Dani gave me a funny look and said she had met someone online named Bree who lived in the area and when she described her I knew it was the same Bree. This caused something in my mind to start to turn. It seemed strangely familiar that she would meet Bree online like I did. For the next hour while we got are stuff together I started to grill Dani trying to see if she what I could get. Eventually she told me what I expected to her. She was one of us. She like Bree had been born a man and had made a wished to be a woman. She told me "she had only had been a woman for about a week." We talked for another 30 minutes or so before I noticed the time. I than told her we had to go or we would be late for the concert. We than hoped into the Z4 and off we went. I knew their is a chance that Olivia might make trouble while I was at the show but at this point I just want to go watch Bree and have a good time. I will finish this day after the concert so talk to you guys later.

Dani took this picture and boy do I look hot.

My Day Was a Living HELL

A warning for people before reading this I have made it a goal to post everyday no matter what to best help myself and if their others like us. Today was by far the worse day I have had since I moved to Florida.

 I woke up at 4:30 in the morning because I could not sleep. Every time I closed my eyes all I saw was a naked Bree. I turned on the tv to try and clear my mind but it did not work. It was not helping I was in this fancy hotel room all by myself. I need someone right now more than ever. I decided I would go visit my parents but when I got to their home no one was around. I used my spare key to get inside and made myself at home while I waited for them to return. I waited time seeming to move in slow motion. All I could think of was Bree. Why was my mind doing this to me. These urges were getting harder and harder to control. After about two hours I called my mom to see when they were returning and found out that they went out of town and would not be back Monday. I left the house and began to just walk hoping that the fresh air would help. I was not paying attention to were I was going and all of sudden I was at Bree house. Damn I wished I remembered she only lived a couple of miles from my parents place. I was about to see if she was home when Olivia pulled up to the house and went inside. As much as I needed someone I did not want to risk making things worse. When I got back to my parents house I got in the Z4 and went to a liquor store before returning to my hotel room. I was not going to fall back into my old cocaine habits but that did not mean I would not drink my sorrows away.

I must have taken this picture before I blacked out

I woke up a couple hours after blacking out still feeling cold and empty. I pray that I feel better tomorrow. I want to go to Bree concert but I don't want to show up like this. If I don't recover from this soon I might fall back into my old habits. Sorry to leave on such a depressing note but I hope those who are reading had a better day than I did.

My Day With Bree

Today was one wild day. I got up at 6:00 am to get ready to drop Carolyn at the airport and than go meet Bree. Carolyn said I could use her rental car while she was in New York. You know Carolyn has way too much money if she is renting a 2012 BMW Z4 for long periods of time.

My car is a piece of shit compared to this thing.

Carolyn also gave me one of her credit cards to use to buy whatever I wanted. After dropping her off at the airport I drove to Cafe Bastillie to meet with up with Bree. When I entered the cafe Bree was already their sipping some coffee. I sat down and asked how her morning was. She told me "It was good for the most part but on the other hand I had three people use my blog to stalk me. I apologized for spying on her and we started to talk about our experiences. After about ten minutes of talking something in my mind changed. I could not think stop thinking about how hot Bree looked and I just wanted to hang out with her all day. I than decided to ask Bree to skip work and come hang out with me at the mall. She was a little hesitant at first but she eventually agreed. Bree suggested we go to the dolphin mall because it was her favorite mall. So we got into the Z4 and drove over to the dolphin mall to do some shopping. I had never seen a mall that big and after a few hours we got to Bree favorite store Garage.

 

Bree wanted to find a swimsuit for her next trip to the beach. This sadly is were things turned for the worst. While trying on swimsuits our sexual urges took over and we started to make out. I came to my senses and stopped us before we did anything we were going to regret. Bree was with Olivia and it would be wrong for me to damage their relationship. When Bree fully realized  the situation she had a mortified look on her face. After that we went back to her car which was back at Cafe Bastillie. Before she left Bree asked me if we could get passed this and still be friends. I told her of course we could and I would see her concert later in the week. As I watched Bree get into her car I have to admit it was going to hard for me not to follow my urges to go after Bree. I am back at Carolyn hotel room and I have decided to go to bed earlier than usual  tonight to hopefully clear my head.

Here is a little something for my fans goodnight.

 

Dinner With Carolyn

Today was a very  busy and productive day in my hunt to find Bree and the other girls. I woke up around 7:00 A.M  angry with myself for not talking to Bree about my past. So I decided  I was going to make it up to myself  by confronting possibly the most dangerous of the girls, Carolyn. Finding her was not that difficult because looking at Bree blog I saw that she was having at meeting without Carolyn. After my run in with Bree the Yesterday I went to go find the graphic design company she worked for since I knew it was by my workplace and after fifteen minutes of looking I thought I found it. When I pulled up to the design company I saw a girl who looked liked Carolyn walking inside the building. After waiting for a while Carolyn eventually came out the door and walked across the street to a Starbucks. As I watched her from a distance I came to the conclusion that I was not going to just go up to Carolyn and confront her. I don't think she would believe me and just laugh at me. I needed something a little more forward. I decided to use my phone to message Carolyn telling her that I wanted to meet her and that if she didn't I would send a copy of her blog to Skyline Frames Production. I know that this was a dick move but I knew Bree would not want her boss and fellow employees to see her online hobby. About five minuets later she emailed me to meet her at some five star restaurant at 6:00 pm. When I got to the restraint I saw Carolyn sitting at a table with legs crossed wearing this extremely sexy in this black blouse and black pencil skirt. When I sat at the table she gave me the coldest stair I have ever seen. Before I could say anything Carolyn handed me a folder filled with pictures of me from earlier today. She looked at me and said "I pulled these pictures off security cameras. After you contacted me, I looked into people that matched your description and seems my feeling that I was being watched were correct. I know everything their is to know about you."

   

I can't believe I wore that outfit, It is summer time in Miami and was extremely

humid today. I should have known   even in this ally I would not be able to cool 

    myself off a little without someone seeing me but I can't deny this picture is hot.    

I could not believe how easy it was for her to get photos of me. Whatever connections she has are absolutely amazing connections. For the next hour we talked about our changes and how we were adjusting to our new lives as women. I could tell Carolyn might act like she was tough but deep down inside she was sad and confused. It made sense by my research she has been a woman for the shortest amount of time. I have been one for over six months now and had to adapt to survive. I wanted to help her learn to except her fate and that their was no going back to our old lives. Carolyn also wanted to help me. She knew I was dirt poor, worked at McDonald's, and lived in a shitty apartment. So she came up with a proposition. She would help me get a high paying job and help find me a nice apartment to live in. In return she said that she would let me try to help her adjust to her new life. After dinner she told me I was staying in her hotel room with her until she found we found a new apartment for myself. When we got to her hotel room she told me that she was going to New York for a while and that I will stay here while she was gone. Once she was asleep I decided to see if Bree had seen my next blog post I put on ecirava.com/. As soon as I logged in Bree I.M. tab popped up . She told me to meet her at Cafe Bastillie at 8:00 a.m right before she had to go to work. Tomorrow is going to be another interesting day hopefully Bree is not too mad at me for what happen. I have to go to bed now I have to go bed now I have to drop Carolyn at the airport at 7:30 a.m. Here is one more picture before I go to bed just for you guys. Talk to all tomorrow.

Still sexy even when it's time for bed

The Begining of My story

Hello my name is Tonya and welcome to my blog. I was born a man but got turned into a woman by a wish. I originally started my blog on the website ecirava.com in the form of captions as a way to put my past life as a man to rest but thanks to some strange circumstances I have been dragged into a world much bigger than I could have possibly imagined. Instead of rewriting stuff I already said in the captions I wrote I decied to just repost them here.

This is my story so far. My goal is to post new material daily on this blog and I plan on making new captions ecirava.com. To fully get a view of this crazy world I was dragged into check out the blogs Being Bree & Carolyn's Captiviating Chronicles which links are posted on this blog and Olivia Captions on ecirava.com by using the url:http://ecirava.com/index.php/view/asagi/olivia/. Until next time it is good bye and thank you for reading my story.